Hey everyone. I think a "Happy New Year" is still appropriate for the time being. This post is basically just me chatting with you about stuff accompanying the end of a year and a beginning of a new one, a year recapping, resolutions and the list goes on and on.
Let's start with a recap, shall we?
2020 has already done so much for and to us and the world. In fact, much more than whatever can be included in just a post or a video. I'm not going to deep dive into that, don't worry but I want to dive somewhere else. The "Online Recap" if I shall say. I'm here, staying at home obligatory, no summer travelling, no late night dates with my mom or friends. Oh friends, don't let me start on that. I couldn't see them as often and as freely as I planed. So many -so called- plans of mine were underway and got brutally canceled. I faced couple of my worst fears,,, more lived than faced. What's funny that it's not just me this time. Where in the hell does these people I follow on Instagram get all these pictures and how and when did they go to places and meet all these people?? Please be honest with me, how am I living in misery and they are having the time of their lives?
With all of these contradictory feelings I decided to investigate and experiment. What did I do ? You ask. I decide to join the fun myself in a "December challenge" in which I post 1 picture a day of the highlight moment of my day.
(You can find it on my Instagram, if you are curious)
Couple of answers coming right your way:
*Yes, it was fun to do something nearly everyday to take a picture of and share it on Instagram without sharing too much of my personal life.
*Yes, it was so tiring to force myself to do new stuff nearly everyday.
*Yes, most of these days were bad days and I was so depressed and refusing to go out of bed in the late afternoon.
*Yes, thank you, I survived.
Couple of conclusions coming right your way:
*Not everything you see on the internet is real.
*Everything in life is fancy if you took a picture in the right lighting and put the right filter on it. (About 95% of the pictures I posted were from home. I didn't have anywhere to go.)
*People don't share their misery, break downs and failures online.
*You are not obligated to do something you don't want to do.
*Don't ever compare yourself, life or progress with anyone. Move at your own speed and pace.
*Be kind. You don't know what others are going through.
*It's normal to be the center of your universe but don't expect to be the center of someone's else universe or make them the center of yours.
It's not that I didn't know all of these things. It's simply that I need a reminder so this is your reminder too.
So to end this on a high note, here are some good things that happened in this year:
*I was home a lot so I was able to form a better bond with my family.
*I was a support for my family in a way I wouldn't be able to do, if I had a job.
*I lost some special bonds with people who weren't right for me and had to be just a chapter in my life but formed a stronger ones with others based on somethings that was out of love not just a temporary need.
*I digged deep down into myself that it caused depression sometimes but helped me to understand more about me too.
*I had time to be me, to have hobbies and do stuff that I'm passionate about like writing, decorating and making planners again.
This year is not the end of the world. It's just the beginning. It's always good when we are forced to change and adopt because we hate change.
Last but not least I invite you to reflect
and find what is always draining you,,, like
Then make a list of everything you need to do.
Any year can be your year if you tried smarter enough.
Thanks for the last year
and
hoping you the best for this on.
I love you guys.
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